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Whelp! We started a married blog. You know, the thing that all the cool married people are doing. haha. It's jamesonandbecky.blogspot.com

go ahead and check it out!

Whoo!

"Love is free, love me, say hell yes!"

I'm getting married in less than 12 hours! Whoo! Now I'm off to bed.

Slowly?

So it's coming up. The wedding. In FOUR days! How crazy is that? It's still very surreal to me because it's always been way in the future and now it's like you know, four days ago was nothing...and in four days I will no longer be single. It's a very weird thought. Obviously it's a great thought, but yeah. Anyway. This week is crazy. I'm currently sitting in a bed that is completely a mess. We've been packing up our lives the past day or two and my bed is a complete disaster. We organized everything and now it's just putting them in boxes. And it's going to be a fun move haha. There is a ton of stuff to get done this week and it kind of makes my head reel to think about all that needs to be completed. So it's just got to be a one day at a time kind of thing. I think Becky has more to do than I do...more family and friends coming into town and all that stuff. All the out of town family on my end is my grandma and aunt and they're already here. Anyway. Becky graduated! She is now a college graduate and it was great to be there and see her stand on her chair so we could see her haha. Sorry this is so random and kind of like a run on sentence/paragraph thing, but that's pretty much how my thoughts are working. My thoughts are more like a thousand little twitter status updates in a row but not at the same time. If I survive this week with my sanity intact I'm going to freaking need a week on a beach to ourselves. Good thing we got one I guess! haha. Well I hope everyone is having a great week and I'll actually see most of you soon!

Movies

So this is why I hate Hollywood.

Sigh. When will they make movies that I don't want to spend my money on? The answer is never of course. The Sherlock Holmes trailer was amazing...Even if the Harry Potter movie wasn't good at all I would still be glad I went just to see that. If you clicked that link to watch it...go to the second movie down. The one after where he's standing there ripped with no shirt on. It has a much better ending. Anyway. I could go all geek on you and talk about the new Avengers movie that is coming out in 2012 after they make Iron Man 2 and Thor and Captain America (by the way Captain America's shield is totally in Tony Stark's lab in Iron Man) but I'll spare you all the details.

Instead I'll talk to you about Harry Potter, which I went to see a couple days ago. And the verdict? 5 out of 5...until the end. The movie was absolutely brilliant and had a much different feel to it. The other ones were more fantastical and dreamy and stuff with the random magic they do and all. That may not make sense but it does to me haha. But this one was much more down to earth and serious, which makes sense given the content. It also had the best storyline of any of the movies. The other movies I could make out what was going on because I had read the books, but this movie was done well enough that anyone can watch and find a full, coherant plot that spans what happens in the book. Of course there are small ways they deviate, but that is forgiveable until the end. You may have caught on that I don't like the ending. Much at all. I drop the ending to a 2 1/2 of 5 and I will tell you why. I assume that the people who care about the movie who read this are the people who have read the books and hold the inverse true as well. So if you're a person who hasn't read the book and is excited for the movie then skip what I say about the ending. Deal? Deal.

So my biggest problem with the end is how anticlimactic it is. In the book it built to this huge explosion of happenings at the end, and the movie just kind of burned itself out. The only battle in the entire movie was in the bathroom when Harry just totally *insert word choice of owned* Malfoy. Which is interesting because as I remember it in the book it was just a singular spell by Harry, not a battle that decimates a bathroom. But at the end there was no battle with Death Eaters. I was also irked at how much they focused on Snape's good side. In the books you hate him but know that he is good...until the end of the sixth book. Then I remember arguing with people about how I was sure he was still good and half the people thought he really had been a traitor the whole time. In the movie there is no doubt. You know he is still good. Sure you recognize that Harry is very upset at him, but you still know that he is good based on some actions that don't follow exactly in harmony with what I read. Another problem? Dumbledore's death. In the book it was a disaster! Everything was changed, everything was wrong, the future was then uncertain and you didn't know what would happen. Again in the show it was just kind of oh, that sucks. Man that's sad. He's dead. Oh well, Harry will take care of things. So I think what it really comes down to is that the director really tried to soften the blow of a very dark and uncertain ending into one that still is full of hope. An ending with no mention of killing Snape or the uncertain future of Hogwarts or anything. And I guess that bothered me. Still! Amazing movie and I highly highly recommend.

Anyway. That's my breakdown of it. I hope everyone is having a great week! I leave for Idaho tomorrow for Becky's graduation. Get back on Saturday. Then have less than a week of getting things finalized and all and the wedding on Friday! It's so close. Have a great day everyone. Love you all!

Albums that are getting lots of plays in my library:

Fall Out Boy - Folie a Deux (yes I know what it means)

Motion City Soundtrack - Commit This To Memory

Hellogoodbye - Zombies! Aliens! Vampires! Dinosaurs!

What now?

So it's always a daunting task to post after having had something awesome happen in your life. It's easy to just babble about some everyday activity, but when, say, you go to California for a week it's always a little more intense. I'm never sure exactly what to say about it all. So we'll see if we can do this justice, eh? Sweet.

So I left last Thursday to head to California. Road trip! I made a playlist and all including, of course, the requisite track California by Phantom Planet (see: the OC theme song). It was a two day drive. Which made for a long trip and a fair bit of boredom haha. I brought along a book, game boy, ipod and stuff to write with. And we made it! Stopping somewhere along the way overnight we made it to Diamond Bar, California (about 20 miles out of LA and where they filmed Orange County) around four in the afternoon or so. And we then had our family reunion; spanning the weekend. It was pretty fun. Ate food, watched Field Of Dreams, and saw people I never knew existed haha. Good times. It was in the mid 90s the whole time I was there and that's a little change for a kid from little ol' Sammamish, where they give you warnings when it hits 80 degrees. It was fun though! I loved it.

Sunday was uneventful. Went to church and had a dinner with all the family again. Played some games, the whole nine. Nice and everything but not much to report. Monday we went to the beach! And I got burned haha. My face and random spots on my chest where I guess I sucked at putting on sunscreen. Ate at the Hat, which is an amazing sandwich place. Highly recommend. And Tuesday we went to Disneyland! Which is cooler than cool. I had a blast. I would put up pictures but I'm really too lazy to do all that now. But it was awesome. And it was actually not very crowded at all which is sweet. The longest we had to wait in line was 20 minutes for Space Mountain. How awesome is that? It had been far too long since I had been there. I love it every time. I don't really know what to say about Disneyland. I mean, it's awesome...so you can't really say any highlights. So I won't. It was fun.

Wednesday was a relaxation day. Just spent some time with family visiting. Until the evening that is. We went to this pirate dinner thing that was super sweet. It's almost like Medieval Times but pirate like instead. We went and had orderves and everything and they had this little pre-show thing. And it set up the story and all and then we all went in the main place and sat down. And it was this big ampitheatre almost with a pirate ship deck in the middle with masts and ropes and everything. And they put on this whole interactive show while we ate dinner with big booms, sweet aerial acrobatics and swordfights and everything. The pirates were all ripped with sweet six packs and all and it pretty much made me jealous. But it was awesome.

Yesterday we drove home. All. the. way. home. Which turned out to be a 19 1/2 hour drive. In one go. We got back last night at like 4:30 and I'm pretty tired because I haven't slept much. I'm in for a nap today. Anyway.

That was the trip! It was awesome and everything but it's good to be back. I hope all of you had a great week yourselves! I'm going to go relax and maybe nap and maybe my parents will take me to see Harry Potter. Have a great day everyone!

California, rest in peace.

Seriously folks

When life gives you lemons...

you will make the crappiest lemonade known to man unless it gives you a buttload of sugar as as well.

Just saying.

ps California is sweet and I've gotten burned already

100

Headed to California tomorrow morning! I may write sometime in the middle. I'll be gone for a week and a halfish. Hope you're all going to be doing alright! Enjoy your time and I'll see you on the other side!

PS Happy post 100 for me :)

Excitement

So I have decided something. Well, I kind of decided it a couple weeks ago but last night it became much more solidified. And that is that I am excited not only to be married and all the stuff that comes with it, but I am specifically excited to share a bed with Becky. Now that may be a no brainer haha. Of course I'm excited for sex and waking up next to her and all that. But I'm realizing something on a very different vein.

I'm excited to hear her sleep talk four nights a week.

I'm not making fun of her I am entirely serious. First of all, she is the cutest girl ever when she is sleeping on my chest. But when she starts getting super tired and starts to fall asleep, I've realized that if I start talking and asking questions she will talk in her sleep. I've also figured out that she lies half of the time when she's semiconscious. Not sure what to make of that, but hey. Anyway last night we're falling asleep on her couch and I start talking to her. And in the span of five or ten minutes these are the topics that she brought up:
-She wanted to get a fake tattoo before she came to see me. A tramp stamp to be precise. This is false.
-Some empty office. I couldn't understand much of what she said about it. But something happened because the office was empty. It was a long story and sounded pretty good honestly but when I asked her to repeat the story she just moved on to:
-What some guy named Jimmy had to do with graduation. The answer? Nothing.
Then I thought she was done. There was a couple minutes' silence and she said "okay." Upon further probing she mentioned the Primes from Transformers 2 and some power they had. It was their power.

I have the greatest fiancee of all time. I'm not making fun of you at all Becky it is sincerely cute and I'm so excited.

I will not, however, mention that I do know that I talked in my sleep too. About this food that some people supposedly serve that grows into this plant stuff to eat and people having to get carted out of some restaurant because they got attacked by it. And it made absolute perfect sense to me. I honestly was under the impression that it was real and everyone knew it and I was telling a story about one restaurant case to Becky haha. I am saved by the fact that she was sleeping.

Anyway. I'm having a great time with her here. I am never more happy than when she is with me. I could not have asked for a better girl to love and love me back. And I am so excited for the troubles and good times ahead. Thank you Becky.

Baby, it's fact our love is true
The way black is black
And blue is just blue
My love is true
It's a matter of fact
Oh, and you love me too
It's as simple as that
Baby, our love is true

Music

So today I have finally decided that I do, in all actuality, have a favorite band. And that band is none other than the great Motion City Soundtrack. If you've never heard of them they've been around since '95 or so and have become a staple to any Warped Tour or punk festival. Great band, great people. I just came on to highly recommend listening to a few songs of theirs. It's bright and sunny music most of the time, but deals with heavy subjects because he was a struggling alcoholic for years. I remembered how amazing they are today and listened to all three of their CD's in a row. And I suggest you at least listen to those songs up there.

As well, I've found one of my favorite albums for when I'm not in a bright and sunny mood. And that's The Glass Passenger by Jack's Mannequin. Their first CD was very poppy and this second is much more mature and a deeper sound. It's a thoughtful record, but still sounds hopeful and uplifting. A great combination.

Not that you care about my music escapades. But hey, I was pretty excited. So you can get lost.

Blah

I'm tired of weather. Just in general. I realized this today. It's kind of bipolar around now. It starts of cloudy and cold sometimes then gets super hot and sunny later. And I'm tired of both. I guess it could be because I'm outside working all the time. But it's irritating. I start off wearing a sweatshirt then i'm in a tshirt sweating my brains out. Right now I'm in my bed...really hot but my feet are icy cold. Naturally. My feet get cold easily. And my hands. It's a curse I suppose. Well anyway on Friday it was, again, really hot. And I'm out there digging holes and mixing and pouring cement and everything. So I figured I could get some sun because, hey, I'm getting married. So I take off my shirt and I'm working for a couple hours and I realize that my shoulders are getting really hot. And I realize that I, for the first time in three or four years, am sunburned. So I put my shirt back on and keep working and after a bit realize how bad it is. So before I go to bed I decide to try this "miracle cure" that I've heard about and put some vinegar on my sunburn. And I go to sleep. The next day I thought it must have worked; I wasn't feeling any pain or anything. Just a slight itching on one spot. That brings us to today. I now realize why I always remembered it was a bad thing to get sunburned. I rarely do so I never remember until it's too late. The itching. It's like hell has broken loose on quarter sized spots on my shoulders and back. Sigh.

I can't wait until it's over tomorrow.

At least my back has some color now though. I'm blessed with skin that is easy to tan. I feel bad for redheads sometimes.

Actually all the time. I don't want no fire crotch.

Gadzooks!

I have officially found the secret to happiness. Want to know what it is?



Gather close.



Closer.


Listen to this album. I promise if you are still upset at the end of it then there is something wrong with you. This CD is giddiness that is injected straight into your veins. I'm not kidding. Even just listening to Here (In Your Arms) is enough to make the biggest statue of a person (me...) have a desire to at least shake his butt. I promise you that you will enjoy yourself listening to this.


Trust me. It's the secret to happiness. Keeps you youthful. Now excuse me as I listen to Oh, It Is Love for the sixth time since yesterday.


If you don't try it, don't knock it.

It's not hard

Damien Rice
Cannonball

Still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
Still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
Still a little hard to say what's going on

Still a little bit of your ghost your witness
Still a little bit of your face I haven't kissed
You step a little closer each day
Still I can't say what's going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball

Still a little bit of your song in my ear
Still a little bit of your words I long to hear
You step a little closer to me
So close that I can't see what's going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannon

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to cry
So come on courage
Teach me to be shy
'Cause it's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna scare her
It's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna lose
It's not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know

Wash

When everything gets crazy and stressful and everything I think of Serenity. And I think the best line ever.

Don't worry. I'm a leaf on the wind.

Frustration

I'm trying to find one of my favorite books. Called The Dragon And The George. It's in a box in the garage with my other stuff somewhere. I've been looking through the boxes and, so far, have been unsuccessful. Frustrating.

Naturally

Of course, if any of you expect anything other than a post a post about Becky the weekend that she visits you are crazy. And it just so happens that she visited this weekend. So...if you don't care, don't read it. Naturally...it's not like I'm going to force you somehow to read something you don't want to. It kind of goes without saying to any post that myself or anyone else writes on a blog. I probably just put that disclaimer each time to make myself feel better for the imminent cheesy moments. So now that I'm alright about it I'll go on.

Becky came! Every time she visits I'm always ridiculously late to pick her up from the airport. Through no fault of my own. I only need to spend less than 15 miles on the 405 from Belleview to the airport and you would think that it would take, well, 10 to 15 minutes. Right? Wrong. For some reason every time I go we're stopped half the time. On a Friday afternoon. At 3 or 4. Makes sense? Sure. It took me 45 minutes minimum to get through. Next time I think I'll learn and leave early. And of course that's the time when there will be no traffic and I'll actually get to the airport in a half hour instead of over an hour. C'est la vie.

So it was her shower this weekend. And so I get the opportunity *cough* to be videotaped for a quiz thingy for the shower. I was asked questions like when and where was our first kiss, what her favorite tv show is, who she would be if she was any character in a movie (I'm not an idiot I got that one right...any girl Heath Ledger has kissed) and things like that. It wasn't terrible. What was terrible was waiting while she was at said bridal shower. I figured that since they were doing their girly thing I should be a man. So I blew people's heads up. Yeah I played Gears Of War (quite terribly, I may add) and then showed up at the end for the manual labor. And let me tell you, these ladies are generous. We got a lot of very nice things and I am extremely grateful. Of course, we each have our favorite gifts. Becky's is the super nice blender and mine may or may not include black lace and all. Hahaha just kidding we don't have favorite gifts.

Maybe.

Anyway we spent every second we could together. We spent time in my hot tub on Friday and Saturday, watched Serenity, went to the mall and shopped around a bit, went out to eat both days, cuddled on the couch. Stuffed envelopes. You know, that kind of stuff. It was a very enjoyable weekend. Not much pressure except for the shower. Just some time to relax and reaffirm our love. It's funny. I would think that I would plateau at some point but I keep loving her more every time she gives me a look or I hold her in my arms. It's so good and so bad at the same time. Sigh. Being apart sucks. I love you forever Becky.

We read scriptures for the first time together this weekend too. We've been reading them together every night on the phone, but this is the first time we were physically in the same place. And it was very nice. To kneel afterwards and pray together is a great feeling. I'm looking forward to it. Every night. Of course the half asleep cuddling before and after isn't terrible either haha.

Honestly there isn't too much to cover this weekend. It was honestly very plain. But very special. Some things were left behind here on accident...I feel bad that Becky can't have them. But she'll live somehow. She gets to have memories of a great weekend with her fiance. That will sustain her. It's what's keeping me going now. Anyway. I love you Becky.

Have a good day everyone.

Today!

I am thankful for...

clean sheets
spelling clean right (I tried cleen four times)
peaches
my beautiful better half (that's you Becky!)
letters in the mail
singing along in the car
working cell phones
laughter
fixed misunderstandings
slight breezes
the brand new mix fiancee and I made (best mix ever!)
spending time with friends
comfortable beds

I thought today was a blah day around 3 or so. Looking back, though, it has been quite amazing. Now excuse me while I listen to our mix.

l i/o v e

Writing again

I used to write poems and songs all the time. They've never been any good but I would write them. And as I've been laying in bed alone for a while looking at what headphones I should buy (sigh. My phone and headphones broke the same day) I suddenly felt I should write. So here's the result...started at around 11:25 and ended at 11:36 PM. I never know what to name my stuff. But this is it. Hope you enjoy...at least a little bit. Hope you don't think it's too terrible. Have a great day!

The writers and the artists have a room that they share
There's fixtures on the ceiling but the walls are all bare
The passerbys get caught up in their magical snare
To a place they've never been
The colors are all twisted and the mic is on mute
Burning through the sun they seek the heaven sent truth
Pages after pages of a lost wasted youth
And a backpack of regrets

I've never wanted more than what I had before
Until my mind became alive with dancing flames
The pain

Rescued by a satellite of infinite strength
Dusted off my sneakers and I checked out her tank
Been running on the fumes and so we left for the bank
And the money rolled right in
The blessings of a power that I've never beheld
The world the poets carved was just a cheap dirty hell
These feelings never witnessed filled my heart's outer shell
And my brand new life began

I saw the outer rim; the flickered fire within
The soul that loved enough, others felt was too much
We brave the cave
We're saved

Pop

So you know the bubblegum pop? The stuff on the radio? Miley Cyrus and The Click Five and all that?

I just listened to my Depeche Mode. Good ol' 80's bubblegum pop.

My cousin's open house was today. She got married last week or two weeks ago or something. It was at my house. This week was pretty stressful as my mom was scrambling to get everything ready and I, as her employed slave, was busy doing whatever she needed haha. My first project? Painting my living room. It went from a white color to a sage green. It was pretty difficult...especially considering the 80-90 degree weather outside (and the resulting 90-100 degree heat indoors). I was sweating by 9:30. Fun times. haha but I got it all done and the room looks pretty nice if I do say so myself. Did yard work forever. Etc. And today was the culmination of the projects and I'm glad it's over. Of course now I have more jobs to do and all but hey. I'm done with this one. And it feels good. And I have a weekend to let the stress just leave. Take a couple naps, enjoy my time. That kind of stuff. Until I start on Monday all over again.

Still working on housing. It's coming slowly. We have an apartment complex that is holding a place for us until they can review our application which we're filling up. These forms are crazy in depth. And we finally figured out why: it's a project! We may be living in the provo projects haha. We'll just get a good lock.

Nothing else is happening. My life is work right now unfortunately. But it's good to keep a good perspective. For every day I work I earn enough to feed us for three weeks or so. Maybe less. Anyway. Just trying to keep good spirits. Hope you all are having an awesome life and enjoying yourselves! Have a good one.

The Second Best

So I've realized that my posts generally come in one of two styles. Flavors if you will. They include Becky (of which I only know the flavor thankyouverymuch) and music (which you can't ever taste but sometimes rattles your teeth when you play it too loud). I've noticed it kind of alternates too haha. Well, this one is about music. I've been employed by my parents to be the odd jobs guy around the house and do whatever they want for 10 an hour for 8 hours a day. I am so grateful because it's making me so I can live and buy food when I'm married. It is also giving me time to listen to lots of music. I've learned some things about my music. One of the most prominent lessons I can think of is this: 20 minutes of Coldplay? Good. Two hours of Coldplay? Most boring thing EVER. Except for the 6.8 hours of Dave Matthews I'm currently going through right now. Sigh.

Anyway.

Music. On to some of my points. First off, The Beatles Rock Band is coming out! That's right an entire Rock Band dedicated to Beatles songs. And I actually have mixed feelings about it. I mean, it's awesome that they're getting respect. They are an amazing band. But at the same time...I can't thikn of many of their songs being Rock Band friendly. Of course While My Guitar Gently Weeps would be amazing (for the guitarist) but I'm just thinking about it. And then there's the second issue: the drums. Whoever has the drum parts has the most boring job on the planet. Unless they make the drum parts harder on Rock Band than they were for Ringo in real life. If Ringo can do it, anyone can do it. Don't believe me? Let's go to the source:
Reporter: Is Ringo the best drummer in the world?
John Lennon: Ringo isn't even the best drummer in The Beatles!
Enough said. Listen to You've Got To Hide Your Love Away haha. They'll love that one.

Moving on.

Also listening I've come up with little categories in my head: wow this song has awesome drums, these guys have the best guitars, etc. And I decided to share that with you. Because, as we all know, I am the complete authority on any (good) music. It's like my own awards dealy. For the music that is only on my ipod. Sweet. Well here goes.

Best guitars: If you ask me which band has the best guitars, you'll quite possibly get the answer of "why it's Coheed and Cambria of course." Amazing. Claudio Sanchez, the singer, also gets the award of best hair. Look at those curls!

Best bass: You have to ask? Honestly? Fine. Here.

Best vocals: I actually don't know this one. It changes which I like almost daily. But Brandon Boyd from Incubus is absolutely amazing. I can't find a video where he really shines but you can check out their new single I guess. And that song that they did for Stealth. But I'd recommend picking up an album. Morning View is a great place to start.

Best lyrics: Bright Eyes. Hands down. Next.

Best piano: Well I say Ben Folds. But Muse has great stuff too (piano solo in the middle of the song).

Best drums: The obvious choice is Rush but I think they're a bit overrated. So I'm going to surprise everyone and say Yellowcard. Seriously that drummer is amazing. I've seen them twice live and he's done drum solos and even his normal playing is mindblowing. That is a friggin huge drumset he uses. Plus the dude is black and huge and could probably kill me. That wins points.

The worst literary interpretations of all time award goes to Taylor Swift. She says Romeo and Juliet was the greatest love story of all time and calls herself a scarlet letter, which is adultery. Thanks try again.

Wow that was a lot dumber than I thought it would be haha but I just put a lot of work into it so it's staying and getting put up. Too bad for you haha. Hope you're having a great day!

Music

Bright Eyes
"Four Winds"

Your class, your caste, your country, sect, your name or your tribe
There's people always dying trying to keep them alive
There's bodies decomposing in containers tonight
In an abandoned building where
Squatters made a mural of a Mexican girl
With fifteen cans of spray paint and a chemical swirl
She's standing in the ashes at the end of the world
Four winds blowing through her hair

But when great Satan's gone... the Whore of Babylon...
She just can't sustain the pressure where it's placed
She caves

The Bible's blind, the Torah's deaf, the Qur'an's mute
If you burned them all together you'd get close to the truth still
They're pouring over Sanskrit on the Ivy League moons
While shadows lengthen in the sun
Cast all the school and meditation built to soften the times
And hold us at the center while the spiral unwinds
It's knocking over fences crossing property lines
Four Winds, cry until it comes

And it's the Sum of Man slouching towards Bethlehem
A heart just can't contain all of that empty space
It breaks. It breaks. It breaks.

Well I went back by rented Cadillac and company jet
Like a newly orphaned refugee retracing my steps
All the way to Cassadaga to commune with the dead
They said, "You'd better look alive"
And I was off to old Dakota where a genocide sleeps
In the Black Hills, the Badlands, the calloused East
I buried my ballast. I made my peace.
Heard Four Winds, leveling the pines

But when great Satan's gone... the Whore of Babylon...
She just can't remain with all that outer space
She breaks. She breaks. She caves. She caves.

Running

Now. I hate running. I'm just going to get that out of the way off the bat. I am not an exercise fan. Everyone says it feels good and all that kind of stuff. No it doesn't it just makes you tired. Endorphins are a myth perpetuated by exercise science people who want to stay in business. I should know, I am the authority on these things. But Becky has somehow suckered me into making exercise part of my daily routine and so I might as well get some sort of enjoyment out of it, right?

So I used to watch TV while I ran. We had our satellite hooked up and I'd watch NCIS or Fringe or something in the mornings while I lifted and ran on our elliptical. That was pretty cool I enjoy watching a good show. But then the unthinkable happened...what my parents had always talked about happening occured: we got rid of our satellite and hooked up internet TV to our screen. And for some reason that doesn't get put out on the TV in the exercise room. So I started to mess around with music for when I ran so I'd have a better stride and at least some entertainment. How my running thing works is I push this button on the elliptical and it does four minutes of low resistance, four of high, low, high, low, high, low, then five minutes of cooldown. 33 minutes in all. So I have officially put together the perfect playlist that almost matches my strides and changes and everything! Obviously not a perfect match for most of them but yeah. Here it is:

Jameson' "I'm glad nobody can hear this but me" exercise music:
1. Avril Lavigne - Girlfriend
2. Emotional Anarchist - MxPx
3. JET - Rollover DJ
4. The Ramones - My Brain Is Hanging Upside Down
5. OK Go - Here It Goes Again
6. Queen - Don't Stop Me Now
7. Over It - Intro
8. Kid Sister - Control (LA Riots Remix)
9. Muse - Muscle Museum
10. Enya - May It Be

I had to put some Enya on the end otherwise my cooldown just turned into more running at normal speed time haha. Put on music that makes you fall asleep and my stride will invariably slow down. I guess Sigur Ros or Coldplay would have worked just as well. Anyway. There it is! Muscle Museum is my favorite one to run to because that song is perfectly timed with me. It's beautiful. Oh and when I lift every other day I throw on these songs at the beginning (the last two actually go on at the end because that's when I do my last set):

Kanye West - Jesus Walks
Tiger Army - Ghosts Of Memory
Led Zeppelin - Immigrant Song
Billy Talent - Red Flag
Hoobastank - Born To Lead
Linkin Park & Jay-Z - Izzo/In The End

So there we go. Of course I finish all of this just in time to think that maybe I should add more time on to my running. What's new?

Becky and I have started reading scriptures and praying together on the phone at night. That sounds dumb when I write it out but it really is an awesome experience. A perfect way to end the day.

I hope you're all having a good sabbath now that you've read all about my eclectic running music. I'm listening to acoustic guitar hymns. Not this. Don't you worry.

Though later on I may or may not be listening to Bright Eyes.

Paradise Found

Well I've been putting this off for a few hours because I don't know honestly how to start. Becky has already written about the weekend we had and has put it in the most perfect words that I feel anything I'll write will be inadequate. But I have to consolidate thoughts onto some medium and this is it. If you're not into the sugar I'm going to write then turn away. It may be too sappy for you haha. Oh well.

So it started off by me going to pick her up from the airport on Friday. After some nice traffic and other setbacks I picked her up a half hour late or so haha. And seeing her was enough to make my weekend beautiful but that's just the least of it. After making some dinner we left to shop and look at stars and spent the evening enjoying each other's company and talking through the night.

We spent the next day being SUPER productive and managing to have a great time as well. I played some Gears of War while she was getting her nails done and we went to a tasting of our reception food. And it was amazing. I had three slices of the prime rib haha. And I tried and failed to help Becky out with the decisions that everyone asked her to make. We all know that the bride's opinion is the one that matters of course but after so many your head does want to explode. I forgot what we did after that. I think just went and gathered some stuff together and talked to my family for a bit. Then we went and took our pictures! And it was surprisingly an amazing time. I thought that it was going to be a lot of just standing there with a fake smile while someone told me what to do. But Bonnie was pretty good about just following us around with a camera and telling us when we looked ugly ;) Thank you so much by the way! They turned out amazing. Most of our pictures were taken while we weren't paying attention and were just talking and laughing on the beach. For some reason even after an hour or two I was still surprised that they were taking pictures when I wasn't paying attention haha. Of course I do get distracted easily. Moreso when my beautiful fiancee is there. They were great. Then I was privelaged to eat at this place called Anthony's which was incredible. And this chocolate cake dessert was orgasmic. Wow. Good good stuff.

Sunday was spent in church a lot. Went to both wards and we saw people who still hadn't put two and two together haha. It was a nice time. Read scriptures, listened to speakers, tried and failed to take a nap. You know, the usual church routine haha. Afterwards we went and found this cool nature walk haha. Little kid pictures on stones that have info about wetlands and animals. It was a beautiful day and a nice little walk. Ate dinner at my house, watched a movie, the usual.

Monday was so fun! I didn't know what to expect but we left and registered at Target and Crate and Barrel and had a lot of fun with that scanner haha. At first it was slightly weird walking around, not sure what to get and all. But later on we just started having fun. We found the perfect couch at Crate and Barrel! We scanned it for fun. Are we going to get it? Heck no. But it's a nice dream. We shopped around a bit more and then headed to a barbecue at my house with both families and visited and ate and left and played cards with her family. I even got a cute nickname. Good times.

She left this morning. I drove her to the airport and we, uh, chatted for a while. She's now back in Idaho and I'm still here, waiting to see her again. And things couldn't be better. Obviously a few things would be great to change, but everything is working out how it should and it's for the best. Best memory? Driving her home one evening and feeling just this very different feeling. We both felt it. And it was like the cord that held us together was changed to a chain. It was very sudden and almost electrifying but very calm at the same time. One of the most amazing feelings I have ever had and will remember it forever. It's impossible to explain and I don't think it's something that needs to be said. But needless to say I won't be the same. I love you Rebecca Ann. Counting the days.

We're in love, sweet love
We're in love, sweet love
We built our life from nothing
We don't have much room or money
But we've got love
We can only grow much better
I'm so glad we're here together
And on our own. In love.

On your mark...

So! I'm sitting here in bed and thinking about the day and I am unbelievably excited. You see, today is the day that Becky comes in town and I get to see and hold and kiss my fiancee. So awesome. The problem I guess of this moment is that it's Audioslave's turn on my iTunes. I don't know how many of you listen to Audioslave. Amazing band, great sound, I love it. But it is not music that you listen to on bright sunny mornings. Grunge is music you listen to on other days. That aren't quite as happy and exciting haha. But it's alright I am enjoying it.

I get to mow the lawn today. I'll hopefully start in a little over an hour...get an early start so I can be done by 11 or so and spend a bit of time with Michael. I won't see that kid for a while. He may not be able to do anything which is slightly depressing though. I'll live I suppose.

I don't have anything exciting to write about. At all. The only thing that's happened is that I've been digging post holes in my backyard. And apparently it's an old glacial depository blah blah or something so there are freaking dinosaur eggs or something in the ground. These rocks are over half the size of my head. Not enjoyable. I've been playing some xbox in my spare time. Running in the mornings. And that has been my entire life.

I have noticed something though. I listen to music constantly throughout the day because I'm working and everything. And there's a little effect that I've realized that I don't care much for too much. I don't exactly know what it's called. A friend of mine who had a home studio and recorded music called it paning, but upon further detective work it seems there is no such word. Anyway. This effect is when they put the sounds on one side or the other to certain degrees. That probably didn't make sense. Have you ever listened to music where like one guitar part or the vocals or something only comes out of one headphone? And you check to make sure they're plugged in and they really are and you figure out that for some reason that's what the artist or producer wanted to do? Yeah that's it. I don't mind it to some degree. Most bands or artists do it. But there are extremes. And I don't like those extremes. For example, I'm going to mention (Windy look away) the Beatles. Now, AMAZING band obviously. Founders of rock or whatever. I love them. But they are not infallable. They are notorious for using this effect to overkill during some of their albums. Listen to Here Comes The Sun or Yellow Submarine with headphones. Take the right one out. Where did the singing go? It's gone! Vocals are the one thing that I need to come through both ears right down the middle. Guitars are forgivable if one is on one side and the other on the opposite. But vocals coming out of just one ear? Ew. It drives me crazy. Maybe I'm just too picky I guess. Oh well it's not like it's hurting anyone but me.

/rant

After the end of this Audioslave CD and Avril Lavigne's Girlfriend I'm out of the A's! I'm excited. And if any of you are laughing about that song I will stab you to death. I used to put that on with Tiny and listen to it every morning along with the Ting Tings, which are the most amazing band ever. Kind of. They're fun though haha. And Tiny will say she's attractive. But not me because I'm engaged and Becky is the most beautiful girl ever. That last part wasn't a joke by the way she is way awesome looking. Anyway. Keep it real guys. I'm going to have a great weekend so you better too. Smile and be happy! The sun is out and that is cause for celebration in itself.

Accents

Every time I sing along to Oasis I have to say "Champagne Supahnover" just like he does. It's a curse.

blech

I laid down for a short nap at 7:45 this evening. Woke up a bit after 9. Dang. My mouth tastes terrible and my stomach is very upset as well. Ew. Don't do this people. Learn from my mistake.

I listened to 57 Ataris songs today. Good good times.

Project

Well, I have a new project. I need something to do with music and I was excused from my last one. So I've decided that I'm going to listen to all of my music in alphabetical order. Wow. I don't know how big that is for some people...I have almost 13 straight days worth of music on my computer. Which isn't all my music but it's all I'm going to do. Anyway. It's going fairly well right now...I'm still in the A's. So far I've listened to:
AFI
Aaron Edson
The Academy Is...
Acceptance
Ace Enders And A Million Different People
Addison Park
Alien Ant Farm
Alkaline Trio
The All-American Rejects
Amber Pacific
Anberlin
Angels and Airwaves
The Aquabats
Aqualung

I still have nine whole CD's worth of music until I'm out of the A's. Haha this is awesome. It was a little rough getting to the Aquabats because I wasn't in a funny mood. But whatever. Anyway this is a little pointless but I don't care.

My family is leaving for Utah for a wedding in five or six hours. I'll be home alone for five straight days. I would say party but there's nobody to party with so most of it will be playing Guitar Hero or Gears of War. We'll see how it goes. Have a good one everybody.

For you it's been so long

So it's interesting. When I would write a post a day they could be stupid little things and i would be just fine with that. When I haven't written for almost a week I start thinking that I should make it good so I'll wait until I have some inspiration hit. A few days later I still got nothing. That's because my life is pretty boring haha. And know what? I'm alright with that. Obviously I wish a few things different, but I'm fairly content with the way things are going right now. Which is always a good thing.

I'm laying in bed an hour after I woke up. Laptops are awesome. I'm sitting here texting my fiancee and listening to some Rilo Kiley and JET. The latter has been one of the best CD purchases I've had for a long time. Amazing. It's like a modern version of the Beatles almost. I highly recommend.

It's raining like crazy this morning. And I'm actually pretty happy with that. I didn't want to go out to work in the garden because I only have like a half hour or an hour's worth of work to do. Why get all muddy for that? So I'm waiting until a bit more work pops up. Like mowing the lawn. I need to do that pretty badly. But I can't when the grass is wet. So hopefully it dries up pretty soon here.

I'm still out of a job. I've applied to everything. eeeeverything. ish. And I still got nothing. So I'm still praying and hoping an opportunity will pop up. We'll see if something does. Here's to hopes.

So what's new then? Zerr and I are playing Gears Of War now. It can get pretty intense. That's legit game footage by the way. Anyway. Scary. Freaky. Fun. It's like Resident Evil and Halo had a baby that ate them. Every time we play this game we get scared out of our wits. Those things are freaky. But yeah good times anyway. Not that anyone that reads this cares about my video games haha.

You can disregard the playlist on the right. It may be what we're using for the reception. I put it up so Becky could give me a review. She hasn't yet. Probably means it isn't any good. We'll see though. I am getting married! This is so weird and cool and exciting. Becky has a little counter dealy on her blog. 78 days. Wow. Eight weeks and I'll be married. It's the most awesome and scary thought in the world. I'm way excited though. And Windy, you don't want Tommy to set you up with anyone. Those guys he hangs out with are pretty weird.

Well I'm going to get off and stop wasting your time. I need to go down and run anyway. I get to help a lady in my ward with some photoshop stuff at 9:30 today. Hopefully I remember how to do it all...I haven't messed around with that program since I was a senior. I was pretty good though. Anyway. Have a great week everyone!

Life, the universe, and everything

So! Life is going on slowly but surely. And I'm kind of in this weird limbo state. I haven't found a job yet...still applying at everywhere that doesn't seem like they're hiring. So I'm not sure what I'm going to do other than pray and hope. And I've been doing plenty of both. So here's to me earning a living so I can support my wife.

It's raining. Sigh. It was so pretty last week! It was awesome. I don't mind the rain at all. I love it actually. I've just been in a sunny mood lately and it hasn't been sunny. Lame? I thought so too. Why doesn't everything revolve around me? Something I'll have to look into later. This needs to get fixed.

My mom has been in South Carolina for a week. I've been the designated mother. You know, like cooking dinner for us and all. Becky is excited because this means that I can at least decently follow a recipe. Michael isn't because I have to leave at 4:30 or so when I'm over with him haha. She comes home tomorrow evening though so my family will finally get real food on Thursday. I'm sure they're curbing their enthusiasm for my sake.

Two and a half weeks! Until Becky comes. I'm worried that if I do get a job I may have to work on the 23...that's the day we get our engagement photos taken. And eating lunch at the country club. I'm kind of required. We'll see. I'm just excited I get to see her again.

Well...I don't know what else to say I'm just dropping an update on my life. I haven't had much material to write about lately...you'd think that me being home alone a ton would spark some interesting thought processes in my head. Apparently not. Sorry. But to end, I'll leave a list of ten things that make me terribly, unfailingly happy. I'm trying to be more positive. So let's see if I can make something up!

ps this is in no order
1. Holding Becky in my arms (cuddling, hugging, etc)
2. Acoustic guitars
3. The smell of new books
4. The feeling of the inside of a new sweatshirt
5. Holding hands
6. A slight breeze in the park or beach on a warm day
7. Watching a thunderstorm from a covered porch
8. The words "I love you"
9. Singing. Loud, soft, to sleep, whatever. But I get embarrassed singing for people.
10. Grass in my toes

Simple things. That's what life is really all about. Too many people go looking for the next sensation to blow them away and make them feel alive. Too often they're forgetting that the things that make us feel alive are the everyday, the mundane. These are the moments that define our experience. Big things are nice and fun and adventurous sure, but the simple and ordinary are really what we should focus on. All of these things are made for our use and enjoyment (see D&C. Section 88 or something. Actually probably more like 59. Just use the index). How can you not feel alive while you're leaning into the wind on a chilly morning? What more do you need than the feeling of rain on your face as you lay on the asphalt? The sun on your back. This is what we need to focus on. The more we focus on the simple things the better our lives will become. I'm a firm believer of this. Anyway. Have a great day everyone. You're awesome. Without you this life would be so much harder.

This 'n That

So...I'm home now. Back in Seattle. And let me tell you something...definitely not as cool as it should be. Sigh. Anyway. Let's rewind and recap...

I took my finals. I got a 92 on my religion, a 79 on my personal finance (which I was way excited for) and then a 68 on my stats. Which I was confused about. I had an A in that class. I thought I knew the material. Then wound up not having heard of half of the stuff on the test. Yup. Well there goes my A. Anyway schools over so no point in talking about it anyway.

I packed up and cleaned up my apartment. That was fun...cough. Then Becky picked me up on Friday! And I went down and spent some time in Idaho with her. And it was awesome. We watched movies, cuddled, all that fun stuff. Just spent time together. And it was amazing. She is the most incredible person (that's why I'm going to marry her). Then I had to pack up again and fly home on Monday. And now I'm here. Without her. Something is terribly wrong about that. Sigh.

Well it's rainy here. Surprise? Yeah actually. I was expecting Utah weather which was a mistake. But in my defense I haven't spent a spring in Washington since 2006. Three years makes you forget a few things. I wish it was sunny so I could get a little darker before my engagement pictures. I would *shudder* tan, but I don't have a job or money yet. So...nope. Not now at least. I'm searching for a job and am going to turn in an application to the city today. Still looking around. We'll see what happens.

I met the parents last night. Stressful until I got there. Then there was a little ice breaker and things were fine. At least the bruise isn't visible. haha. They're pretty fun people. We watched a video of Becky's first birthday...which I'm sure she's thrilled about. I like them and all anyway. We're going to some place called Round Table Pizza which Becky is still shocked that I've never eaten at considering I've lived near one since I was 12 years old. Hush woman. (I love you please don't hurt me)

Well nothing exciting is happening. Job search, playing around with music, missing the most important aspect of my life. You know, the little things. Anyway all of you are great, keep it up. I'll keep up the updates on whatever you need (and don't need) to know. Smile! You're loved.

End of an era

Well. I'm now done with this semester. It makes you think. First off, it makes you think WAHOO! I'M FRICKIN DONE! And you're happy. And you spend a whole day doing nothing on the couch to unwind. Then it starts making you think.

So what's it make me think about? What I'm going to miss and look forward to. I mean, this is my last semester as a single guy. I'm getting married in less than four months. Cold feet? Frick no. I'm way excited. I'm going to marry the most amazing girl I've met. It's the best decision I've ever made. I've never looked forward to anything more than I do this. I never thought that I would marry the awesome girl my good friend took on a date. And I couldn't be happier.

But what am I going to miss? Well I'll miss living with these guys. Tiny is awesome and I'll miss having him around. I won't miss hearing the guys who live above me stomping around. I've been hearing the ceiling creak for months. Man it's going to be good to get away from that.

I'm headed home sometime. Soon. That's going to be sweet but not at the same time. I hear that I have my fair share of planning to do when I get there. And then the whole not seeing Becky for over a month issue is tearing me up. I'll work as much as I can. Won't have a social life. You know, that whole schtick. Of course, it will be the last time (hopefully!) I'll ever live at home. Free rent and food! Gotta milk it I guess.

Anyway. Just a bunch of ramblings. I thought this would turn out a lot better than it did. Oh well. I'm not in a pensive mood honestly. My mind is racing a bit. But that's life! I'll have to go check out my nothing box. Have a good one.

Wake the dawn

Someday you will find me
Caught beneath a landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky


Go listen to Oasis. Now.

Dynamite Kick

So what's going on with me? Nothing big...

Except finals.

And mono.

Yeah...about that. About a week ago today I started getting really tired. I took two naps that day. Wednesday was worse because I had a fever to boot. Lucky for me I bundled up and took a billion degree shower and the fever broke that night before I woke up Thursday. But I still kept this general sick feeling and had absolutely no energy. At all. Becky shows up Thursday and convinces me to go get an appointment at the doctors. So come Friday she takes me over and I go in and they test me for strep and it comes back negative, so they test me for mono which they say "most likely isn't it."

Sigh. haha yeah it's a positive. So here I am! I have mono. Finals are this week and next week and I'll hopefully have the energy to get everything done that I need to. Today I have a presentation and my throat hurts pretty badly. Ah well I guess. What doesn't kill us makes us stronger. Or at least just really annoys us haha.

Anyway. Just thought I should let you know what's up. I probably won't write too terribly much for the next week or two. We'll see though. You guys are awesome have a good one.

Seasons

SoI'm supposed to be writing a paper right now. Due Monday. Five to Seven pages (but he said to keep it shorter). I have a page. Ish. Shorter actually but only by a couple lines. I can't concentrate though so here I am...writing...something else...

Doesn't make sense.

I have gone through phases this semester on which tv shows I have been in love with. How does it start? Arrested Development. Seinfeld. King of Queens. Firefly. Everybody Loves Raymond. House. And now? Friends. I'm such a loser.

I wrote my name on all of my movies the other day. No more shall they be stolen without my knowledge and not returned. Take that universe.

Well, on to the paper.

Maybe.

Countdown

T-minus:

Nine hours: Sleep
27 hours: Becky comes to visit
Six days: Classes are over
10 days: Becky comes again
14 days: Last day of finals
18 days (give or take): Going home
25 days or so: Getting a job
43 days or so: Becky comes to visit
108 daysish: Becky graduates
113 days: The best day of my life.

Sigh. If only if only the woodpecker cried...

Ode to finals

Robbed of precious youth
reading throughout the night, the
silver lining lost

Reality

Sigh. So here goes another round of stress. Class registration is happening soon! Mine is on the 10th. I'm not certain how I keep getting the short end of the stick and register on like the last day possible. I'm almost halfway done with my undergrad and I'm still down here with the incoming freshmen. My roomates register a full four days before me. Dang. Anyway, looking at classes keeps getting more and more stressful. How to balance my sanity vs getting out of school quicker to save money? It's a pretty...awesome...balance. Or something. Anyway, here's what I'm looking at. I've pretty much decided the clases I'm going to take and hopefully will get the times I want (yeah I spent a while yesterday searching through pages). Here goes!

MWF:
Psych 302 (Research and Design) - 10-10:50
History of Creativity (knocking out a GE credit and learning some cool stuff about medieval stuff) - 11-11:50
Psych 304 (Psychological testing) - 12-12:50

TTH
Rel C 234 (Doctrine and Covenants) - 10-10:50
Creative Writing - 12-1:20

Hopefully those will be the times I get. Yeah, I know, only 14 credits (15 is the lowest I've ever taken) but with this schedule hopefully I'll be able to get a part-time job to help pay for, you know, food and stuff. Anyway. Start at 10 and end at 1:30ish every day? Isn't that sweet? I thought so too. Notice the absence of math. Apparently statistics is the only math that psychologists will need. And apparently when I took my AP test as a junior it waived my credit. Awesome? I thought so too. haha. Anyway, love you all. Got a CIA project I need to go do (for reals. Sigh. School.) so I'll get going. Have a great day!

This is love

Hey! Well I have a bit of time. I'm sitting here with Janette and Tiny watching Dan In Real Life and have some time. So I thought I would just drop you all a line! First off. This movie is incredible. I don't know if any of you haven't seen it, but if you haven't you need to. Like now. Amazing. So yeah.

What's more amazing? I am, like I said, engaged! That's right. Becky said yes! She came down Thursday and we spent a bit of time hanging out on the couch. We had dinner with Dave and Kristen and watched a bit of TV. We went on a walk to the library and Becky was freezing so I gave her my huge coat haha. My big ol Quiksilver one. That comes down to her knees and past her wrists haha. I love that coat. Anyway we're walking and we go to the library and browsing the shelves and having fun. And I want to go to the park so we head out. And it is the most beautiful night. Stars, beautiful mountains, everything. And I decide that that's when I want to do it. I had carried my ring around all day just in case. And it seemed like a great time. I was planning on doing it the next morning but decided against it. And I said some stuff and got down on the knee and everything. She romanticizes it a lot but it was very nice. Perfect for us. And she said yes and I love her and she loves me and we're getting married on July 31! She has the ring and everything. Amazing.

Well we went to Vegas and she met my family. And she likes them and they like her and everything seems like gold. We went to the strip, cuddled on the couch, talked and laughed and everything. Had a great drive...cuddled for the whole thing. I played golf, got slightly burned in the glorious sunny 80 degree weather and had great food and company. And I'm very content. I have the girl of my dreams and we're getting married in four months. I'm pretty healthy. I am doing alright in school (despite its best attempts otherwise). It's great.

Sorry I'm so sappy. It's just...I'm freaking engaged! You have to allow me this haha. You all are awesome. I love you all (but not as much as her). Take care!

"All I ever wanted was
Love and love and happy afternoons
Watching TV in your room
While you're laying in my arms."
-The Early November

ps I made a new blog I'm going to update as well. threesixtyandfive dot blogspot dot com. Check it out if you want.

Salutations

Hey everyone! Becky and I are just checking in real quick from my uncle's home in Vegas. We're engaged. Just thought you all should know. Anyway, off to see the strip! Have a good one!

ps I bet you suckers wish your weather was 80 degrees and sunny.
pps we haven't made out too much. Difficult with close proximity to family.
ppps--and this is from Becky-- it is because Jameson is so proper and wont let me near him when everyone is around
pp-yougettheidea- rightfully so in my opinion. My cousins and siblings don't want sloppy make out visuals. Actually, I'm just afraid of how jealous they would be. It is pretty hot.

The Rocket Summer

So I'll be making up things for you to see
Like romantic lights surrounding Italy
Cause you deserve the very best, and I'll never rest
So I'll be sure to pass that test
And I just smile and say "whoa" cause you just gotta know
That every time you stay it never goes away
It reaches to the stars and shines right through the clouds and lights up this whole world
Bless your heart you've made me happy again
It's been so long and I'm sick of pretending
You've enlighted the brain in my head

Cause I don't wanna wait for another day cause I can feel this is right
I don't wanna make this go on for too much longer
Cause you've got a ring-less finger and I could go buy a ring right now
Well, actually I don't have any money but that's ok
Cause I can figure it out

'Cus I'm doing everything for you
because I love to be near to you,
Something just takes me away to a place where I'm happy
I'm doing everything for you
Yeah you know that I adore you
And I just can't take it anymore

-Bryce Avary

Promises broken

Well I like how I said "I'll write more" on my last entry. Almost a week ago. I'm so good at keeping promises haha. Anyway. I figured I'd take a few minutes out of my evening and drop a little line.

Things here are going excellent. Well school is tiring and stressful sometimes but I'm surviving and doing better than I thought I would. But other than that I'm doing awesome. Oh an update on the paper. It's due tomorrow at 1:30pm and I'm done with 5 of 7-8 pages. So I am pretty good here. I might just leave it at 6 1/2 or something. It's a draft for workshopping it doesn't have to be perfect. Two pages is easy to write though. I can pump that sucker out in two hours tops.

Everyone needs to listen to anything that Ace Enders has ever done. This includes his solo stuff (Ace Enders And A Million Different People - new CD came out last week, there's also his EP up for free download online), The Early November (his main band that split up) and I Can Make A Mess Like Nobody's Business (his side project from like 2002 or something). Check him out. I'd post a video but i doubt there is one. Alright I just looked youtube has everything. Here is the last song I learned to play on my guitar. And here is an amazing song by his old band. So yeah. Good stuff.

This past weekend was great as always. I seem to only report what happened on the weekends. Sad. But they are the highlights of my life. Just suffice it to say that I love her more every time I see her. She is amazing.

I've decided that I'm too complacent. Well this is something that I've known in the back of my head for a while, but certain events and certain special people have made me take a good look at myself and decide that now is the time to change. I need to exert myself more, make myself stretch and work harder on what I do. Take more pride in my work. I'm naturally a person that doesn't enjoy being in the spotlight and I love to coast, but that kind of conflicts with the necessities of life. I know I've been blessed (cursed?) with the ability to lead well and am a pretty darn good teacher when I apply myself. I am soon going to enter a stage in my life where I will need to take a much stronger leadership position, where my actions and decisions will effect more than just me. And I need to prepare to step up and take my role. So here's to change. If I can do it so can anyone. That's what life is all about right? Progression? Continuing to better ourselves bit by bit so we can become who we need to be. Who others need me to be. Anyway. Random thoughts.

I've already decided the first thing I need to change. Never down two very large root beer floats in one sitting. It took a couple hours to stop my stomach from churning. Blech.

All is well in Zion

So I made a goal to myself this morning that I would write two pages of my research paper a day. I'm a notorious procrastinator and usually do them right before they're due. I have a 7-8 page research paper due on Tuesday. Well, the draft. For workshopping. And if I write two pages a day I'll be done before the deadline. Good deal huh? That's what I thought. I could have a stress free weekend. But as I sat down to write it, I realized how little motivation I had. So I did my laundry. Then I realized that I had another project due on Tuesday that I hadn't started so I sat down and did that (filled out a 1040 form. Fun). So I'm done with that. I play some warcraft with Tiny and decide to do my online midterm. Did that. 90%. Done. And now I'm sitting here trying to decide whether or not to write some of my paper. I've done a project and a test today. I feel pretty good about myself. But it's pretty pathetic to break a goal that I made the same day haha. I do have a slight headache though. Maybe it's from too much thinking. So maybe I should stop trying to work and all. Of course, maybe it's from staring at a computer screen for so long. So maybe I should stop looking at the computer. Either way, I win.

Ah, it's good to have moments like that. I can rationalize my way out of anything I want to.

Went ring shopping. I might share more about that later. Huge news I guess. But I'll leave you hanging for a bit.

I'm normally a person who goes for some sort of chocolate ice cream in leau of the sherbets but the berry berry berry good from coldstone? Yeah. Heaven on a spoon. Get it.

On a sidenote, Becky is coming up this weekend. I'm happy about that. I also tried shaving with a flat blade razor this morning instead of my electric. First time I've tried that in years. I decided that my face either needs to get used to it again or I suck because she wouldn't kiss me right now. It would hurt. Nobody wants whisker burn. Amanda got it and we made fun of her. Mercelessly. That word looks funny. Anyway.

Have a good one. I'll write more often. Promise.

Childhood memory destroyed

As I sat there in stats today I had to wonder. Where did all the numbers go in math?

As Lovers Go

So! It's been a really long time since I've written in this and I'm sorry. I don't have a ton of time because class is coming up. So I'm just going to throw up some lyrics from a song I've been listening to a ton. I'll update for reals later. Hope you're all doing well! Hearts.

Dashboard Confessional
"As Lovers Go"

She said, "I've got to be honest,
You're wasting your time if you're fishin' around here."
And I said, "You must be mistaken,
I'm not fooling, this feeling is real."
She said, "You've gotta be crazy!
What do you take me for? Some kinda of easy mark?"

"You've got wits,
You've got looks,
You've got passion,
But I swear that you've got me all wrong."

All wrong
All wrong
But you've got me

I'll be true, I'll be useful, I'll be cavalier,
I'll be yours my dear
And I'll belong to you
If you just let me through

This is easy as lovers go.
So don't complicate it by hesitating.
This is wonderful as loving goes.
This is tailor made, What's the sense in waiting?

I said, "I've got to be honest,
I've been waiting for you all of my life."
For so long I thought I was asylum bound,
But just seeing you makes me think twice.
And being with you here makes me sane.
I fear I'll go crazy if you leave my side.

"You've got wits,
You've got looks,
You've got passion,
But are you brave enough to leave with me tonight?"

Tonight
Tonight
You've got me

I'll be true, I'll be useful, I'll be cavalier,
I'll be yours my dear
I'll belong to you
If you just let me through

This is easy as lovers go.
So don't complicate it by hesitating.
This is wonderful as loving goes.
This is tailor made, what's the sense in waiting?

Weekend warriors

So! This weekend Becky came up again and of course we had the most amazing time. I'll sum it up in the aesthetically pleasing way:

Things we did this weekend:
Cuddled
Watched movies
Went to lunch with Marshall where I was threatened with a kick in the head if I didn't open Becky's car door haha
Kissed
Played in a playground (check facebook for pictures)
Went to stake conference
Colored more of the sweatshirt
Made food without burning it this time
Played with a camera
Had an amazing time
(note: I also made fun of her for knowing a total of two Weezer songs)

Things I didn't do this weekend:
Study for my psych 220 midterm at 4 this afternoon. I'm still not ready.

Was it worth it? Totally and completely. I'd do it again in a second. Now I'm going to go study. Bring it on.

Yippee-ki-yay mother-

Personality

I was hanging out in my LDS Marriage and Family class and the teacher started going over material that wasn't in the books. He made a big deal about this haha. But listening, it was actually a really interesting discussion. He started talking about personalities, and that there are four basic types. Now, I know you're all starting to think about that INFP jazz or color code test or whatever but this was a collaboration of him and some of his colleagues (he's a marriage counselor). And it was slightly different than what I've heard. Obviously there are ways to intermingle and have a dominant and recessive type and all of that but here are the basic standards that he told us (taken from my notes for the day):
Dominant
Dominant people are always interested in the bottom line. Their main interest is to get things done. They're always moving and busy and have a lot of energy. They're task oriented, and they want brief interactions with people because they're busy. There isn't much emotion; relationships ride shotgun to the tasks that need to be completed. The trick is to take them seriously, but not personally.
Expressive
Expressive people also have lots of energy, but their focus is on relationships. They base decisions on emotion and intuition and put much less stock on the facts. They are validated through relationships with others and personal touch...they're very touchy people. They have a hard time saying no to others and often have a lot to do because of that. They talk with their hands and meander throughout the day. The trick is to give them the big picture: they love to see how their role plays in it. Provide a lot of feedback.
Analytical
Analytical people are a little slower; they don't have as much energy. They are often off in their head and don't have as much interaction with others. They want to do things right the first time. They're often more introverted. They analyze everything and often search for the best deal on anything they might do. They're list people, and instead of getting excited about finishing the list they are very excited about crossing things off.
Amiable
The amiable people are very relationship oriented. They want to do things right, but maybe not necessarily the first time. As long as it happens. They are people that do anything to avoid contention, often backing out and letting others have their way. They are very easily distracted. They want to make everyone happy all of the time, often at their own expense.

He then went on to talk about behavioral shifting and defense mechanisms and all. But after reviewing the list I decided I'm an amiable person...but with analytical points as well. Anyway, there isn't much point to this post. I just thought it was interesting haha. Thoughts? Agree? Disagree? Let me know if you're so inclined.

Wishes and Gifts

I wish I knew the right things to say.
I wish I was better at photography.
I wish I had the willpower to do what needs to be done.
I wish I wasn't sick.
I wish I could fast forward five months.
I wish I had enough money to buy what I need.
I wish I was a better person.

On the other hand.
I just heard NCIS use the term Dear John.
I am going to marry the girl of my dreams.
I'm doing well in school.
I have friends I can rely on.
I saw Becky last weekend.
I love.

You'll always be my konstantine.

Everlong

I think I'm having some emotional or mental problems right around now. I'm lacking an outlet haha. I have the most amazing girlfriend in the world and nobody to brag to. Roommates? Don't care. You? Most fight back vomit when I rave haha. Don't lie or feel bad...it's a natural thing. No explanation needed. You'll just have to suck it up. If you're actually looking for what's going on in my life (and really, nobody who reads this is to be honest) then you'll have to suffer through my syrup. I'll have some nonromantic stuff on here every now and then. Sucks to be you.

So I'm growing attracted to my music again. Becky is going to be so miserable in the coming years haha but my music really is the greatest. We share some interests...but there are some things that she doesn't care for. We'll survive. I've been listening to a lot of my softer music lately though, such as Eisley and The Early November. Chandrew, I listened to The Path again. I haven't heard that CD in ages. It plays me like a friggin violin every time. Sigh. Anyway. Music you need to listen to? Something Corporate, Mae, Waking Ashland, The Rocket Summer.

What else is going on you ask? Midterms. Again. I have my new stats midterm Tuesday through Friday, but for some reason I like to take tests early (unlike assignments, which I put off as much as possible) so I'll get it done Tuesday or Wednesday. Projects. I have a research paper I'm working on for English which is getting a little irritating and a five hour assignment for my Business class that is just busywork because the professor wants some stuff for a database he's making. Sigh. Worth 10% of our final grade. Funny how the ones that benefit the teachers are the ones they put the most weight on. I wonder why.

This weekend is the first week in a couple that I will spend alone. And I'm not excited about that. I guess it's for the best...we both have work we need to get done. But I would rather sit on the floor and be a distraction from coloring a hoodie than research ANWR anyday. Cuddling is just about the greatest thing in the world and I'll be missing that crucial weekend ingredient. Sigh. I miss my baby.

In response to the law school. I don't know what kind of lawyer I would be...my dad is a patent attorney for Microsoft so I'll talk to him about pros and cons and advice and all. We'll see how it goes. And dentistry? Ew.

Well, what's on the agenda for the weekend then? Nothing. I'm headed out with the guys to hang out and play some video games tonight. I'll probably watch Office Space or V For Vendetta or Juno again or something. And I'll study and do my homework. Sigh. Did I mention I miss Becky?

My hair has doubled in length in the week or so that it's been since the razor ate it. It looks almost exactly the same, just a lot thicker. I'm waiting for it to grow out a little haha. I still miss the curtain that fell in my eyes but I'm surviving. Just a while longer.

Nothing else is happening. My life consists of school, music, and missing the girl I love. It's a good thing we spin fantasies because it's good to have an outlet to get away from all the work I'm doing haha. I love talking about sparkling objects and warm months, as she so greatly put it. I'm trying to find a balance between saying what I want to and censoring the content going into your brain. Rough road. So I'll just close with this. I thank God every day for the blessing of her that He's given me. She helps me see and become who I need to be, not who I'm content being. I've never felt so special in my life. She is the one who brings out the real me and looks through the bad that shows and augments the good. Sorry to rave, and Chandrew will disagree, but I love the most amazing girl in the world. Just thought you should all know.

You and me, love and pain

I wonder what happened to my writing. Before my mission I think I had a lot better writing. Chandrew might disagree. I admit I was pretty emo sometimes haha. But I would be able to just write about anything and I liked it. Now I seem to have fallen into a rut. Sure I may have some one liners or whatever that I'm pleased with but I seem to have an overall lack of emotion in most of my spiels. And it's bled into my other writing. My poetry and songs are lackluster most of the time when compared to earlier. Sure my actual writing has gotten better, every now and then I'll even have great imagery or something, the mechanics are cleaner. I have expanded my mind a bit and experiment with more styles including messing with punctuation. In that way I like my current poems more. But before it seems I was able to put so much more of me into it. Not saying that my work now is very distant. It's hard to explain. I'm not certain why either. Maybe it's because of my shift of external stimuli. I've gone from listening to Brand New and Dashboard to Coheed and Cambria and Billy Talent. Instead of reading The Perks Of Being A Wallflower I'm reading The Picture Of Dorian Grey and The Great Gatsby. I'm living with jocks and preps and average kids instead of people I used to spend time with. Maybe all of these combine to make me not as introspective. But really, most of my writing was pretty depsressing. Maybe that's the difference. I was pretty depressed freshman year. And now I have someone who won't take that from me. She is supportive of anything I do or believe in and legitimately makes me want to be a better person. It's because of her I'm beginning to believe in myself and am feeling the best that I have in a while. It's because of her that I smile and love and hurt. And I'll always be grateful for her. Thanks for being my best friend.

I have a very conflicted when writing about her in my blog. I talk to Carly enough about her already...it's our main topic of conversation and she says she loves it but I feel bad anyway. Chandrew isn't interested. Aleece is kind of quiet anyway. I know I'm not writing this for you but still I don't want to drive people away. Sigh. Maybe I should be more quiet about it and just listen to my mixes and miss her in silence. I don't know. My life is pretty boring otherwise. She's my excitement haha.

She came down again this weekend. Thursday night. And it was amazing. We didn't do too much except for one thing which I'll get to in a second. But just being with her is when I can be myself. And she'll love me for it. It's just the most amazing feeling to be able to be completely comfortable and content just laying on the floor with her. We watched six movies this weekend. No. Seven. And I loved it. Saturday we spent doing our project! We are in the process of coloring my sweatshirt. It's white with designs and stuff on it so we got some fabric markers and all and we are having an awesome time. It's not done yet though...we've spent a long time doing it too. And that evening we spent with Becky's cousin and husband and had dinner, watched movies, and played games. It was such a nice feeling. An incredible evening and amazing weekend. And now I'm back to that all-too familiar pit in me that says I miss her. Sigh.

Every time I see you I still hear trumpets.

Well. I'm sitting on my couch and wishing a whole lot of things but very content with how my life is. My new trial? Other than making it through each day I'm trying to figure out my life. I never prayed about my major and instead just went with my interest (which really is a pretty good idea) and am majoring in psychology. But looking at the input and output I'm not sure if it's worth it. I have a very conflicted relationship about how it's going right now anyway and I'm wondering if maybe I'm just enamored with the conceptual version of psych instead of it's dirty mechanics and intricacies. It's also a lot of school for a lackluster salary. And now I'm wondering if I'm going to go to law school after I get my psych BA. I'm not sure if I would be interested in that though. So I'm searching, a little confused, and trying to pray my way through it. Life is getting more and more stressful haha but I'm alive. And working it out. And what more could I ask for?

I could not ask for more.

Point of Order

So...I'm going to update this soon with all of the details you want of this weekend. Or the details you don't want, depending on whether you're male or female. I just had to say something.

You can feel free to blogstalk me all you want haha. I don't bite.

...you...

Lucky

Just a warning: this will get sappy.

So! I am pretty much the happiest guy in the world. I had the best valentines I've ever had. Ever. Becky is pretty much the best thing that's happened to me. She is everything that I could ask for in a girl and then throws on extra awesome qualities on top haha. Like texting me and telling me that Ninja Turtles is on and I should watch it. Or being able to absolutely rape me in Mario Kart and tie me in Super Smash Bros. Or laughing at my dumb jokes and all. Or saying "let's do it!" to a ludicrous idea (but is secretly the american dream). She makes me want to be so much of a better person and supports me in doing so. She can see past my failures to what my intentions or whatever are. And she loves me. And I love her. And I'm not ashamed of that. So I'm pretty much, as previously stated, the happiest guy. Ever. And will continue to be so. Just really wanted to rave right now because my outlets are few. So I hope you're having a great week. Because your happiness can't top ours.

Lucky we're in love in every way.

It really is the best

Happiness

You know what's awesome? I have a girlfriend I can brag about.

Matoor

I have discovered one of my biggest pet peeves. When people pronounce mature as matoor. Or however you would write it phonetically. You know what I'm talking about? Yeah. That way. Before I just thought it was funny. But no. It's not. I was in my LDS marriage and family class and my teacher apparently pronounces it that way. And we were talking about, well, marriage (wow the first time we actually get to the subject. what an anticlimactic sentence) and emotional maturity. Oh man I was practically grinding my teeth. It was almost painful to hear. It still hurts my ears right now just thinking about it. Ew. Anyway. Just...don't. Say it that way. Ever. Please. For the sake of my sanity. Gall.

I've gotta go eat something.

Honestly, why?

So I walk about 20 minutes to get to campus every day. And the other day as I was passing Wendy's I smelled the strangest scent. It was so familiar but so not at the same time. I was pondering this turn of events and trying to identify the smell in question when suddenly it hit me. A blow from my distant past when I was young enough to have still lived in Utah. And I realized exactly what it was. Remember those boxes of 64 crayons that everyone loved so very very much? How for a while it came with two crayons that were scented and at the time I thought they were so good?

Mission accomplished. Now I just need to know why Wendy's smelled exactly like my crayon did more than 12 years ago.

The future

So I just finished watching some very scientific documents of the world and reality and everything. So now I can predict the future. Apparently, we're going to make some AI. And we're going to have a little disagreement...but what happens? We'll be in the future all united by peace. But we will have a problem sitting down and talking with these robots. And we're going to start a war and nuke the sky so they have no way to function. So we will be taken over by machines that are much smarter and stronger than us and turned into their energy source. They'll put us in some program that makes us think that we're living normal lives...but what happens then? It seems that the entire existence of these machines will be harvesting humans and making sure they don't wake up. That's it. They'll hang around with huge guns and wait for us to come to so they can shoot us. We're going to be turned into a power source...for that kind of life.

Sounds pretty retarded for such an intelligent race.

And if I had the choice I would definitely take the red pill, but only to have super cool kung fu action.

Long days long nights

What's up everyone! So I don't have a purpose for writing this. Which would normally mean I wouldn't write something. But it's been a while. And I feel the need to write something so you get the lucky opportunity to hear from me. So here's what's on my mind lately:

-I bought some doc martins before school and I love them. The only problem is that my right shoe rubs my heel and gave me a blister one time. It's only my right one. I'm pretty sure it's broken in by now. Maybe I just don't lace it up right.
-We got a new TV. We now have three in our apartment. We had a broken 13 incher...and then I brought mine which is bigger and a flat screen. Which I loved. And now we have an even bigger one...but it's not a flat screen. It's sweet though. So now you need to understand. We've been through three tv's...and none of them have had a remote. Sweet. At least the DVD player does. So I can go through the seasons of Arrested Development without getting up.
-My shoes are slowly migrating from my closet to the front room. At this very moment I have three different pairs of shoes plus my flip flops in the corner by the couch. Flip flops? Yup. Shut up.
-I used to think that I hated to talk on the phone. Guess I'm wrong. It just depends on who I'm talking to. Becky and I had a two hour conversation yesterday and I loved every minute of it. Except for when she made me play guitar. Slightly weird. But alright.
-For some reason BYU thinks I'm on their health care plan. Which means they've locked my account because I haven't paid them 204 dollars for something I don't need. Sigh. I'm going to need to stop by on my way home tomorrow and tell them off.
-I have too much music. I have so many CDs that I haven't listened to...and I'm not getting around to them. I'm busy making mixes and playlists for Becky. And listening to them on repeat to check quality. Yeah guys I put a lot of work into those things. I can't say I'm the best at it but if you're ever looking for one just let me know. Sadly, makeout/romantic mixes might be my specialty. Just because I love those songs.
-I need to exercise more (read: I need to start). If anyone wants to start up let me know I need a buddy. And I guess that's aimed at Chandrew because nobody else who reads this is in Provo.
-I've fallen into a rut with my poetry. They're bland, lack any symbolism or descriptiveness, and just kind of bore me. I need to fix that but don't know how. I should start reading more maybe.
-I'm cliche

Well there's just a schmorgasboard (or however you spell it) of my random thoughts. Hope you all are doing well. You guys are awesome! Keep a smile on your face.

Love.

Cloud 0

Just to warn you, this might reveal me to be somewhat soft. If you don't want to read it, I'm not worried.

Well I just have to say that this has been the best weekend that I can remember. Everything has worked together so perfectly. You see, I have met a girl. And not just any girl. Becky. She is the most amazing girl ever. I could go on about how great she is but you don't want to hear it. Anyway. She came down to visit this weekend. How come all the best girls always live in Idaho? Lame. Well she came down and we had a great weekend. Went to PF Changs, walked, went to the movies, cuddled on the couch, watched some other movies, hung out at Borders...just didn't do much. But we did it together. And it was so great. She is definitely someone I won't get sick of for a long time. And she's made me happier than I've been in a very long time. So just so you all know...I've now kissed a girl since I've been home from my mission. And it was great. So have a great week everyone. I know I will.

Caring is creepy

So I was talking with Carly on a night that I was feeling particularly argumentative and she asked me what I cared about and I had a list of three things. She countered that she could fill books with what she cared about. And I realized that I was probably just being obstinate or whatever and so I'm writing this list. It might be all-inclusive or might not depends. But this is a list of things I care about. Here goes:

-following the gospel
-not looking like an idiot
-my family
-my friends
-making other people happy
-my reputation. This is hard to explain. I don't care what other people think of me. But I do care if they think I'm not living up to what I should be. Like, on my mission, I didn't care at all who liked me and who didn't, but I did care if people thought I was a bad missionary. Get it?
-keeping my stomach happy
-collecting shoes
-my hair
-my presentation (how I look, etc)
-my grades
-having a cell phone on me whenever possible
-music
-getting better at playing guitar
-being worthy for my future wife
-having fun

And I'm kind of running out of things to say now. Sad. So I really don't care about much. Hm. Maybe I'll be able to think of more later. I guess I'm just not in the right mood to care now...I'm too busy having some fun I haven't had in a long time. Have a good one all.

Loveliness

So I'm sitting here on a Sunday evening on my couch and guess what? I'm cuddling. Heck yes. My life recently took a huge turn for the worse when I was guided by our Father above to dump a girl who I really thought was going to work. And the ensuing next few days were absolutely depressing but life of course goes on. And you know what? It really does. And I'm here as a testament that it does. And I'm pleased with that. I'm picking up and moving on. And Carly is here for the weekend and I am having the best weekend I've had for a long time. She is such an amazing person. Why do girls always make the best friends? Of course it doesn't hurt that they have cuddleability. That is a new awesome word. Haha. Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that I'm smiling tonight. Legitimately. It's been a while since I've done that. I'm still alive and I'm moving on. And right now, I wish this evening would go on forever. Take care all.

Life Sucks

Finch
Post Script

I wish it didn't hurt, hurt like this
To say these things to you.
I'll sacrifice one moment for one truth.

If we get through tomorrow then we'll be fine.
We'll wait for forever and see how close we get.

It's just another day, one more chance
To get this right.
I'll sacrifice forever please just for tonight.

If we get through tomorrow then we'll be fine.
We'll wait for forever and see how close we get.

The worst is over for now.
Take a breath now let it out.

Legit

So! News from the home front. I'm now official. Let me explain. So I thought that my major was Psychology. I was pretty sure I declared that when I got in college. But apparently I didn't. This was made apparent when I went to my psych 220 class and my teacher said that none of us were psych majors. So, being confused, I checked online and sure enough I'm an open major. Or...I was. I'm now official! I have a major. I went with Chandrew to the SWKT and declared our majors. We're both psych majors now. So I feel totally legit. Sweet.

I hope you're all doing excellent. And have a great day!

Playlist 1

Here's the playlist I've been listening to a lot lately. If you're having a bad day, give it a spin. It works wonders.

1. Ace Enders - I Told You So
2. All-American Rejects - Straitjacket Feeling
3. Brand New - The Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot
4. The Bravery - The Ocean
5. Bright Eyes - Poison Oak
6. Daphne Loves Derby - Pollen And Salt
7. Dashboard Confessional - This Bitter Pill
8. The Early November - Figure It Out
9. Fall Out Boy - I've Got A Dark Alley And A Bad Idea That Says You Should Shut Your Mouth
10. Fastball - Out Of My Head
11. Fountains Of Wayne - All Kinds Of Time
12. The Hush Sound - Out Through The Curtain
13. Jack's Mannequin - Kill The Messenger
14. Matchbox Twenty - Unwell
15. Motion City Soundtrack - Hold Me Down
16. My Chemical Romance - I Don't Love You
17. Relient K - Let It All Out
18. The Rocket Summer - Treasures
19. Something Corporate - Bad Day
20. Sugarcult - The Investigation
21. Taking Back Sunday - Your Own Disaster
22. Tokyo Rose - Meghan Again
23. The Used - Yesterday's Feelings
24. Yellowcard - City Of Devil's
25. Ben Folds - Fred Jones pt. 2
26. Meg & Dia - Monster (acoustic)

Burn and...is enjoy the right word to put here? I dunno. Whatever it is, do that. haha. Have a good one everyone.