Everlong

I think I'm having some emotional or mental problems right around now. I'm lacking an outlet haha. I have the most amazing girlfriend in the world and nobody to brag to. Roommates? Don't care. You? Most fight back vomit when I rave haha. Don't lie or feel bad...it's a natural thing. No explanation needed. You'll just have to suck it up. If you're actually looking for what's going on in my life (and really, nobody who reads this is to be honest) then you'll have to suffer through my syrup. I'll have some nonromantic stuff on here every now and then. Sucks to be you.

So I'm growing attracted to my music again. Becky is going to be so miserable in the coming years haha but my music really is the greatest. We share some interests...but there are some things that she doesn't care for. We'll survive. I've been listening to a lot of my softer music lately though, such as Eisley and The Early November. Chandrew, I listened to The Path again. I haven't heard that CD in ages. It plays me like a friggin violin every time. Sigh. Anyway. Music you need to listen to? Something Corporate, Mae, Waking Ashland, The Rocket Summer.

What else is going on you ask? Midterms. Again. I have my new stats midterm Tuesday through Friday, but for some reason I like to take tests early (unlike assignments, which I put off as much as possible) so I'll get it done Tuesday or Wednesday. Projects. I have a research paper I'm working on for English which is getting a little irritating and a five hour assignment for my Business class that is just busywork because the professor wants some stuff for a database he's making. Sigh. Worth 10% of our final grade. Funny how the ones that benefit the teachers are the ones they put the most weight on. I wonder why.

This weekend is the first week in a couple that I will spend alone. And I'm not excited about that. I guess it's for the best...we both have work we need to get done. But I would rather sit on the floor and be a distraction from coloring a hoodie than research ANWR anyday. Cuddling is just about the greatest thing in the world and I'll be missing that crucial weekend ingredient. Sigh. I miss my baby.

In response to the law school. I don't know what kind of lawyer I would be...my dad is a patent attorney for Microsoft so I'll talk to him about pros and cons and advice and all. We'll see how it goes. And dentistry? Ew.

Well, what's on the agenda for the weekend then? Nothing. I'm headed out with the guys to hang out and play some video games tonight. I'll probably watch Office Space or V For Vendetta or Juno again or something. And I'll study and do my homework. Sigh. Did I mention I miss Becky?

My hair has doubled in length in the week or so that it's been since the razor ate it. It looks almost exactly the same, just a lot thicker. I'm waiting for it to grow out a little haha. I still miss the curtain that fell in my eyes but I'm surviving. Just a while longer.

Nothing else is happening. My life consists of school, music, and missing the girl I love. It's a good thing we spin fantasies because it's good to have an outlet to get away from all the work I'm doing haha. I love talking about sparkling objects and warm months, as she so greatly put it. I'm trying to find a balance between saying what I want to and censoring the content going into your brain. Rough road. So I'll just close with this. I thank God every day for the blessing of her that He's given me. She helps me see and become who I need to be, not who I'm content being. I've never felt so special in my life. She is the one who brings out the real me and looks through the bad that shows and augments the good. Sorry to rave, and Chandrew will disagree, but I love the most amazing girl in the world. Just thought you should all know.