This is love

Hey! Well I have a bit of time. I'm sitting here with Janette and Tiny watching Dan In Real Life and have some time. So I thought I would just drop you all a line! First off. This movie is incredible. I don't know if any of you haven't seen it, but if you haven't you need to. Like now. Amazing. So yeah.

What's more amazing? I am, like I said, engaged! That's right. Becky said yes! She came down Thursday and we spent a bit of time hanging out on the couch. We had dinner with Dave and Kristen and watched a bit of TV. We went on a walk to the library and Becky was freezing so I gave her my huge coat haha. My big ol Quiksilver one. That comes down to her knees and past her wrists haha. I love that coat. Anyway we're walking and we go to the library and browsing the shelves and having fun. And I want to go to the park so we head out. And it is the most beautiful night. Stars, beautiful mountains, everything. And I decide that that's when I want to do it. I had carried my ring around all day just in case. And it seemed like a great time. I was planning on doing it the next morning but decided against it. And I said some stuff and got down on the knee and everything. She romanticizes it a lot but it was very nice. Perfect for us. And she said yes and I love her and she loves me and we're getting married on July 31! She has the ring and everything. Amazing.

Well we went to Vegas and she met my family. And she likes them and they like her and everything seems like gold. We went to the strip, cuddled on the couch, talked and laughed and everything. Had a great drive...cuddled for the whole thing. I played golf, got slightly burned in the glorious sunny 80 degree weather and had great food and company. And I'm very content. I have the girl of my dreams and we're getting married in four months. I'm pretty healthy. I am doing alright in school (despite its best attempts otherwise). It's great.

Sorry I'm so sappy. It's just...I'm freaking engaged! You have to allow me this haha. You all are awesome. I love you all (but not as much as her). Take care!

"All I ever wanted was
Love and love and happy afternoons
Watching TV in your room
While you're laying in my arms."
-The Early November

ps I made a new blog I'm going to update as well. threesixtyandfive dot blogspot dot com. Check it out if you want.

Salutations

Hey everyone! Becky and I are just checking in real quick from my uncle's home in Vegas. We're engaged. Just thought you all should know. Anyway, off to see the strip! Have a good one!

ps I bet you suckers wish your weather was 80 degrees and sunny.
pps we haven't made out too much. Difficult with close proximity to family.
ppps--and this is from Becky-- it is because Jameson is so proper and wont let me near him when everyone is around
pp-yougettheidea- rightfully so in my opinion. My cousins and siblings don't want sloppy make out visuals. Actually, I'm just afraid of how jealous they would be. It is pretty hot.

The Rocket Summer

So I'll be making up things for you to see
Like romantic lights surrounding Italy
Cause you deserve the very best, and I'll never rest
So I'll be sure to pass that test
And I just smile and say "whoa" cause you just gotta know
That every time you stay it never goes away
It reaches to the stars and shines right through the clouds and lights up this whole world
Bless your heart you've made me happy again
It's been so long and I'm sick of pretending
You've enlighted the brain in my head

Cause I don't wanna wait for another day cause I can feel this is right
I don't wanna make this go on for too much longer
Cause you've got a ring-less finger and I could go buy a ring right now
Well, actually I don't have any money but that's ok
Cause I can figure it out

'Cus I'm doing everything for you
because I love to be near to you,
Something just takes me away to a place where I'm happy
I'm doing everything for you
Yeah you know that I adore you
And I just can't take it anymore

-Bryce Avary

Promises broken

Well I like how I said "I'll write more" on my last entry. Almost a week ago. I'm so good at keeping promises haha. Anyway. I figured I'd take a few minutes out of my evening and drop a little line.

Things here are going excellent. Well school is tiring and stressful sometimes but I'm surviving and doing better than I thought I would. But other than that I'm doing awesome. Oh an update on the paper. It's due tomorrow at 1:30pm and I'm done with 5 of 7-8 pages. So I am pretty good here. I might just leave it at 6 1/2 or something. It's a draft for workshopping it doesn't have to be perfect. Two pages is easy to write though. I can pump that sucker out in two hours tops.

Everyone needs to listen to anything that Ace Enders has ever done. This includes his solo stuff (Ace Enders And A Million Different People - new CD came out last week, there's also his EP up for free download online), The Early November (his main band that split up) and I Can Make A Mess Like Nobody's Business (his side project from like 2002 or something). Check him out. I'd post a video but i doubt there is one. Alright I just looked youtube has everything. Here is the last song I learned to play on my guitar. And here is an amazing song by his old band. So yeah. Good stuff.

This past weekend was great as always. I seem to only report what happened on the weekends. Sad. But they are the highlights of my life. Just suffice it to say that I love her more every time I see her. She is amazing.

I've decided that I'm too complacent. Well this is something that I've known in the back of my head for a while, but certain events and certain special people have made me take a good look at myself and decide that now is the time to change. I need to exert myself more, make myself stretch and work harder on what I do. Take more pride in my work. I'm naturally a person that doesn't enjoy being in the spotlight and I love to coast, but that kind of conflicts with the necessities of life. I know I've been blessed (cursed?) with the ability to lead well and am a pretty darn good teacher when I apply myself. I am soon going to enter a stage in my life where I will need to take a much stronger leadership position, where my actions and decisions will effect more than just me. And I need to prepare to step up and take my role. So here's to change. If I can do it so can anyone. That's what life is all about right? Progression? Continuing to better ourselves bit by bit so we can become who we need to be. Who others need me to be. Anyway. Random thoughts.

I've already decided the first thing I need to change. Never down two very large root beer floats in one sitting. It took a couple hours to stop my stomach from churning. Blech.

All is well in Zion

So I made a goal to myself this morning that I would write two pages of my research paper a day. I'm a notorious procrastinator and usually do them right before they're due. I have a 7-8 page research paper due on Tuesday. Well, the draft. For workshopping. And if I write two pages a day I'll be done before the deadline. Good deal huh? That's what I thought. I could have a stress free weekend. But as I sat down to write it, I realized how little motivation I had. So I did my laundry. Then I realized that I had another project due on Tuesday that I hadn't started so I sat down and did that (filled out a 1040 form. Fun). So I'm done with that. I play some warcraft with Tiny and decide to do my online midterm. Did that. 90%. Done. And now I'm sitting here trying to decide whether or not to write some of my paper. I've done a project and a test today. I feel pretty good about myself. But it's pretty pathetic to break a goal that I made the same day haha. I do have a slight headache though. Maybe it's from too much thinking. So maybe I should stop trying to work and all. Of course, maybe it's from staring at a computer screen for so long. So maybe I should stop looking at the computer. Either way, I win.

Ah, it's good to have moments like that. I can rationalize my way out of anything I want to.

Went ring shopping. I might share more about that later. Huge news I guess. But I'll leave you hanging for a bit.

I'm normally a person who goes for some sort of chocolate ice cream in leau of the sherbets but the berry berry berry good from coldstone? Yeah. Heaven on a spoon. Get it.

On a sidenote, Becky is coming up this weekend. I'm happy about that. I also tried shaving with a flat blade razor this morning instead of my electric. First time I've tried that in years. I decided that my face either needs to get used to it again or I suck because she wouldn't kiss me right now. It would hurt. Nobody wants whisker burn. Amanda got it and we made fun of her. Mercelessly. That word looks funny. Anyway.

Have a good one. I'll write more often. Promise.

Childhood memory destroyed

As I sat there in stats today I had to wonder. Where did all the numbers go in math?

As Lovers Go

So! It's been a really long time since I've written in this and I'm sorry. I don't have a ton of time because class is coming up. So I'm just going to throw up some lyrics from a song I've been listening to a ton. I'll update for reals later. Hope you're all doing well! Hearts.

Dashboard Confessional
"As Lovers Go"

She said, "I've got to be honest,
You're wasting your time if you're fishin' around here."
And I said, "You must be mistaken,
I'm not fooling, this feeling is real."
She said, "You've gotta be crazy!
What do you take me for? Some kinda of easy mark?"

"You've got wits,
You've got looks,
You've got passion,
But I swear that you've got me all wrong."

All wrong
All wrong
But you've got me

I'll be true, I'll be useful, I'll be cavalier,
I'll be yours my dear
And I'll belong to you
If you just let me through

This is easy as lovers go.
So don't complicate it by hesitating.
This is wonderful as loving goes.
This is tailor made, What's the sense in waiting?

I said, "I've got to be honest,
I've been waiting for you all of my life."
For so long I thought I was asylum bound,
But just seeing you makes me think twice.
And being with you here makes me sane.
I fear I'll go crazy if you leave my side.

"You've got wits,
You've got looks,
You've got passion,
But are you brave enough to leave with me tonight?"

Tonight
Tonight
You've got me

I'll be true, I'll be useful, I'll be cavalier,
I'll be yours my dear
I'll belong to you
If you just let me through

This is easy as lovers go.
So don't complicate it by hesitating.
This is wonderful as loving goes.
This is tailor made, what's the sense in waiting?

Weekend warriors

So! This weekend Becky came up again and of course we had the most amazing time. I'll sum it up in the aesthetically pleasing way:

Things we did this weekend:
Cuddled
Watched movies
Went to lunch with Marshall where I was threatened with a kick in the head if I didn't open Becky's car door haha
Kissed
Played in a playground (check facebook for pictures)
Went to stake conference
Colored more of the sweatshirt
Made food without burning it this time
Played with a camera
Had an amazing time
(note: I also made fun of her for knowing a total of two Weezer songs)

Things I didn't do this weekend:
Study for my psych 220 midterm at 4 this afternoon. I'm still not ready.

Was it worth it? Totally and completely. I'd do it again in a second. Now I'm going to go study. Bring it on.

Yippee-ki-yay mother-

Personality

I was hanging out in my LDS Marriage and Family class and the teacher started going over material that wasn't in the books. He made a big deal about this haha. But listening, it was actually a really interesting discussion. He started talking about personalities, and that there are four basic types. Now, I know you're all starting to think about that INFP jazz or color code test or whatever but this was a collaboration of him and some of his colleagues (he's a marriage counselor). And it was slightly different than what I've heard. Obviously there are ways to intermingle and have a dominant and recessive type and all of that but here are the basic standards that he told us (taken from my notes for the day):
Dominant
Dominant people are always interested in the bottom line. Their main interest is to get things done. They're always moving and busy and have a lot of energy. They're task oriented, and they want brief interactions with people because they're busy. There isn't much emotion; relationships ride shotgun to the tasks that need to be completed. The trick is to take them seriously, but not personally.
Expressive
Expressive people also have lots of energy, but their focus is on relationships. They base decisions on emotion and intuition and put much less stock on the facts. They are validated through relationships with others and personal touch...they're very touchy people. They have a hard time saying no to others and often have a lot to do because of that. They talk with their hands and meander throughout the day. The trick is to give them the big picture: they love to see how their role plays in it. Provide a lot of feedback.
Analytical
Analytical people are a little slower; they don't have as much energy. They are often off in their head and don't have as much interaction with others. They want to do things right the first time. They're often more introverted. They analyze everything and often search for the best deal on anything they might do. They're list people, and instead of getting excited about finishing the list they are very excited about crossing things off.
Amiable
The amiable people are very relationship oriented. They want to do things right, but maybe not necessarily the first time. As long as it happens. They are people that do anything to avoid contention, often backing out and letting others have their way. They are very easily distracted. They want to make everyone happy all of the time, often at their own expense.

He then went on to talk about behavioral shifting and defense mechanisms and all. But after reviewing the list I decided I'm an amiable person...but with analytical points as well. Anyway, there isn't much point to this post. I just thought it was interesting haha. Thoughts? Agree? Disagree? Let me know if you're so inclined.

Wishes and Gifts

I wish I knew the right things to say.
I wish I was better at photography.
I wish I had the willpower to do what needs to be done.
I wish I wasn't sick.
I wish I could fast forward five months.
I wish I had enough money to buy what I need.
I wish I was a better person.

On the other hand.
I just heard NCIS use the term Dear John.
I am going to marry the girl of my dreams.
I'm doing well in school.
I have friends I can rely on.
I saw Becky last weekend.
I love.

You'll always be my konstantine.